Self focussed prayer

I have come to realize that... I don't know how to pray for myself. I almost never pray for myself. Does anyone else have this problem? I mean, I say the whole "Give me strength" etc, but I don't really, really pray for myself. I feel selfish when I do it. I know thats silly. All my life I've heard different pastors from the church's I have gone to tell us all that it isn't wrong to pray for yourself, and that you should by all means pray for yourself! I just find myself completely changing the subject mid-prayer when I am trying to pray about something to do with me.

Haven't done one of these in a while...

BLUE

You give your love and friendship unconditionally. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.

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I would like to...

go there.
Greece has been calling my name.

So very cool

Just go here - http://www.vimeo.com/1211060

Joy

Is it wrong to sit outside of Roasters at 12:50 at night and steal internet?
Eh. Oh well.

I've been reading the Bible a lot lately. I recently purchased a new one with the help of my three buddies, Courtney, Karen and Janean (who actually works at Family Christian-- how convenient!). So, I'm really enjoying having my own Bible again after having to use Brittany's for probably about a year now.

Anyways, I'm reading Isaiah and Philippians. Isaiah is the book that I'm reading with Craig (he picked it, its my turn next), and Philippians is the book I'm reading because I just love it. A lot. Paul is amazing... I cannot imagine being him or living like that. He was in jail... in chains... writing to churches telling them how joyful he was to be in chains because of Christ. Going on and on about how it's all so worth it because everyone in the prison new he was there because of Christ, even the guards. Can you imagine? What a man. What a story. So anyways, I'm being fed a lot by the Word lately, and it's definitely changing how I act day to day. I'm just... happier. More than happy-- I am joyful. I have joy through Christ despite what my circumstances might try to dictate.

I cannot wait until Sunday. Tomorrow better speed by. Sunday we leave for Arizona for 7 whole days. I absolutely cannot wait. It's such a retreat. I seem to really have some very awesome quiet times while I am there. My parents house and where they live is just so... quiet. Just really, really quiet. I don't know ANYONE except for them in the whole city of Phoenix, and I like it that way. I just get to stay at home, be with family, see mountians, pet Precious (our dog), read my bible, swim a little, and be quiet. I need to quiet down inside. Such a perfect time for a getaway.

Alright, it's getting ridiculously late to be sitting in a parking lot using internet I am not paying for. In my defense, though, they do get A LOT of my money.
One Milky Way Granita, please:)
Christi

I just...

DON'T KNOW.

Lord, please help me to think clearly.

Adrenaline

You know what kinda stinks? When I work at closing shift at Rudys, that means I get off at 10:30 at night or possibly later than that, up to midnight sometimes. Well, closing is a lot of physical activity, cleaning, straightening, closing things up, lifting, sweating, etc. It gets me going. It gets your blood pumping, kinda like a work out. Anyways, so then I get off work... and the world is asleep and Christi is anything but. Like tonight for instance, I closed in the Country Store, left work... and had nothing to do. Becky is still super jet lagged and is rightfully wanting to sleep away. So, she's already in bed. I text message Karen, get no response. So she's either asleep or doing something fabulous with her husband. I wanna do something fabulous.

If life was perfect...
Kristina would live in Austin.
My parents would move back to Texas.
Craig would hurry up and come home from Hawaii.

THEN, maybe, I'd have something to do right now besides sit outside of a closed Roasters Coffee Shop and look like a creeper sitting out in my car stealing internet. Because, well, that's what I am.

So all night at work tonight I felt excited. Or nervous... or anxious. I dunno! Something. It was like a constant state of adrenaline in my chest! I wanted to run around or work super efficiently. I wanted to have huge conversations with everyone, talk about everything with the girl I was working with, make jokes with all the customers. It was like Christi times ten. Christi on crack. I dunno what thats like because I've never done "crack" (I'm... not quite sure what it is, actually).

Wikipedia says this about adrenaline, "When secreted into the bloodstream, it rapidly prepares the body for action in emergency situations." Um, there was no emergency situation. I dunno what was wrong with me. But I was ready to go go go. I still am right this minute! Dunno what it is.

You know what I love?
I'm talking to three people I graduated with right now
:-)
Over and out. (but not out and about. ergh)
Christi

I am back.

Sorry for the recent pause in my blogging life. The few of you that actually read this have made several comments about my lack of blogginess. I'm sorry! I've been busy! And lazy when I have the chance to blog.

I want to see The Happening. I don't care that 95% of the people I know that have seen it have said that it was awful. I still want to see it. I like end of humanity movies. I know this isn't exactly what it's about... I could be far off... but it's one of those mass-amounts-of-humans-dying movies haha and I like that stuff. I do not know what. Day After Tomorrow rocked my world.



I dunno, just looks interesting to me. I might be the only person in the world that likes it. I just like M. Night Shalamalanalan.

Right now I am sitting where I really love to be sitting. In Roasters, with friends. Tonight the pick of friends are Courtney and Karen- who have seemed to be the regulars that come with me here:-) I love it. Just love it.

You know what else I love? My sister. I get to see her tomorrow after not seeing her for 17 days. Oh em gee. Becky!!!

Okay this is short but better than nothin'.

Peace in (instead of out. get it?).
Christi