Beauty in life

I'm finally proud of who I am. I'm not ashamed of anything, I'm not regretting something I did yesterday, I'm not wishing with every bone in my body that there was a husband laying next to me in bed, I'm not jealous of girls who have roommates, I'm not embarrassed that I don't work in a stuffy office with stuffy people wearing stuffy clothes at stuffy hours in the morning.

I am me, and I am finally and officially okay with it.

I sleep in every day. Sometimes til noon. To some, this might appear as laziness, but really its getting my necessary hours of sleep just like you do, only difference is-- I went to bed at 2 or 3 in the morning. :) I am a night-owl, and I have night-owl friends. I don't have to be to work until 3 in the afternoon during the week, sometimes mornings on the weekends, but usually it is good ol 3pm when I'm strolling into my job which I love.

Speaking of friends, I have a lot of them. For a while, I thought I had no friends. I even jokingly said that quite often to my poor sister everytime I talked to her on the phone (which is like 100 times a day), to which she could only say "Yes, you do!" haha. I finally realized... I do. I have a lot of friends. Its just different than high school where all your friends are also friends with each other. I have a lot of friends, all of which very, very different from each other and all very, very beautiful people. They are from all different parts of my life, current and in the past, and I love them. Some of them could not be more different than me, but I think thats what makes our friendship amazing.

I am not married. I am single. I cannot believe I can say this, but I love that about myself. I have finally stopped thinking I'm old (for heaven's sake, I am 23 years old), and realized that I just happen to be surrounded by several people who have gotten married young, and it has falsely given me the illusion that I should be married by now too and there is something wrong with me! Wow, that could not be more wrong. I love my married friends and I love their husbands, and their marriages are an inspiration to the kind of relationship I want to have one day. :) But, obviously, its not my turn yet. I can say with a deep breath of fresh air, that I am okay with that.

I love my city. I love the downtown musical artistic beauty of it, and I love the north part of the city where Lake Travis and my life reside. I do, however, plan on living downtown as soon as possible. I love the festivals, the live music, the streets, the people, the people, the people. As Willie Nelson said, "There's a freedom you begin to feel, the closer you get to Austin Texas."

I will be moving to Phoenix, Arizona this November to live with my wonderful family for 6-9 months. The first purpose of moving there is to pay off some debt I've had for a while. That will actually either be gone by the time I move there, or will have very little left. The next purpose, and most exciting one, is to save for a trip to Greece next year with my sister and any other girls that want to come with us. Santorini, Greece has been calling my name for quite some time and it's time I go say hi to her.


Apart from all the other aspects of myself, the biggest and most important part of my life who defines who I am is my passionate romance story with my Creator. He reminds me every single day in tiny (sometimes not so tiny) ways that He loves me and wants to have a love story with me. I am who I am because of His Love, I am a positive person because He has given me a reason to smile and to be positive. The Holy Spirit lives in me and is the reason for every single decision I make for His Kingdom.

Okay, thats all for now. I really, really hope to be blogging more often. I come to the library to get online once or twice a week.

Til then!
Christi